let me tell you a story.. Once upon a time late in the night, i was up drawing. i hadn't slept in a very long time. i had been having hallucinations, and i saw my mother (she died in a snowstorm). i got up and tried to run to her, but she vanished. then i realized that it was a hallucination, and started crying.
i wanted to get this off my chest... i'm sorry if i burdened anyone who read this.