heads up i'm super dramatic because i wrote this 2 days ago when it was *fresh* Hi, I'm Ennie. I used to be known as Enzo, Leaf, and Scrappy. I had two other main accounts, @ScrappyGogo and @Blackleaf-, and I've been active on scratch for close to four years. In that time, I've mainly been immersed in the roleplay & art community, primarily in the Warrior Cats fandom. To be honest, I never thought I'd leave. When I joined Scratch back in 7th grade, it was like a door had been opened. I was able to be myself and talk about my interests freely without being judged or called weird. Scratch was my safe space. I would have actual tears running down my face when I would have to take summer breaks. I always imagined myself as one of those people who would still be here, even after I graduated highschool. Realistically, this was a stupid fantasy. I will admit, I've had a bunch of fun being here. Building relationships online was so much easier for 12 year old me than it was in real life. I was also chronically online because of this. It got so bad to the point where I was on scratch first thing in the morning, all through school, and late at night. I was so eager to grow my followers that I would stay up ALL NIGHT making content. The warrior cat community drained me, too. I suffered from a dark depression stage in late 2022. Not entirely because of WC, but it was a big part of it. I tried so hard to be a recognized member of the community, and because I failed, it took a toll on how I viewed myself. Am I really a good person? Am I likable? Am I annoying? As I've gotten older, though, I've realized just how much I used to depend on scratch, and how much it affected my real life. My grades dropped; I went from being a straight A, all honors classes student to failing. My mental health declined. My personality changed. But I've been working on that now. After my grandma died, my activity has dropped drastically. I went from being online everyday to barely checking in once a week. Which is fine, lol. But it's been almost a year since. When I won (or preclaimed, really) Shantyventure, I told myself that I should at least give him a full real-time year.But my life shouldn't be dictated by a fictional battle cat, nor should it be controlled by RainbowPuppyUnicornGirl123 who may or may not be a 30 year old fat man named Chuck living in his mother's basement. I've been thinking about leaving for a while now, if not scratch then just TFCRP. But then I won Orionkit, and was planning on staying for him. But due to MY OWN stupidity and selfishness, I lost the opportunity. Besides, I think I would have let everyone down with my lack of skills anyways haha,, Now, however, I'm more myself in real life than I am online. I'm afraid that if I show how I really act here, people would call me rude and insensitive for my humor, and gross or weird because of my interests. If I'm scared to be myself in the one place I thought I could be, then why stay? I'm not super close with anyone online anymore, and if I am, I can always contact them offsite. So, clearly, I'm leaving Scratch. And the Warrior Cats community. I'm just not interested in fake, unrealistic cats anymore lol. I've probably made this way more dramatic and lengthier than it needs to be, so I apologize. Since I'm leaving, I have to do something with Shanty. I don't want to kill him, but it isn't in-character for him to run away, even if a bunch of stuff is happening. So, his cause of death is unknown because I'm lazy. His body will be found near the Guppy Pond, where him and his forever bff Lingonberryhush, and later on a separate occasion Gooseberrycrown, hunted for frogs. There will be no writing or project posted. I don't think anyone really gives two ducks, but I will always remember my "that girl that's always on her computer" era. I have other socials (insta, tik tok, pin, & chaos) if anyone wants to keep in touch. They're all anonymous accounts, so just ask if you'd like. Side note, all the stuff I post is kpop related lol. Peace out, my dudes - Ennie <3 STAN STRAY KIDS STAN ENHYPEN STAN ATEEZ STAN P1HARMONY STAN TXT STAN ONE PACT STAN DXMON STAN GHOST9 STAN (G)I-DLE STAN LE SSERAFIM STAN THE BOYZ STAN 82MAJOR STAN BTS STREAM 'ETERNAL SUNSHINE' ALBUM BY ARIANA GRANDE C R E D I T S: awesome thumbnail by me lol music - killin' it by p1harmoy - megaverse by stray kids - bouncy by ateez - still monster by enhypen
