a lot of stuff just happened between me and one of my good friends. I can't handle most of it and I just need a break. I was going to try to start posting again but then this happened, and I just feel broken. but I won't be gone forever, I promise. if you're seeing this, catdeck, I wanted to tell you, you're a good friend. I don't know if you'll see this but I just wanted to say: thank you.