*•.¸♡ doctor..?? ♡¸.•* :̗̀➛ yes you read that right. I am a very ambitious person. I swear my dream profession changes every day. But currently, it's a Neonatologist. Yesterday it was a surgeon. That is the story of my life. So why did I decide to make a vlog about this if I don't even know if I actually want that to be career? Well. 1. I'm starting my second year of high school so I have lots of time to decide 2. I'm taking a bio class and I have a test sooo why not. But I think I do want to go into the medical field of some sort. So we'll see. I also obviously want to be an author. (that goes without saying lol) but that's more of a talent based career and I want to be able to support myself and my family. I want to be a mom. So mom/author/and...doctor? Yeah. How? Idek. I'll figure it out. ·.? ༉‧ Four hour state test - the joysssssss love tests :sigh: soo I had to wake-up Early at like 6. I chose sweats and didn’t bother much with my appearance cuz like if I’m going to be stuck taking a test for four hours I better be comfy - I arrived at the school and me and my friends just kinda freaked out for a hot second. We had no idea what to expect and even tho that test doesn't go on our grade it's still scary. - It was sooo long they dragged it out for like forever. Pretty sure I like failed but we'll see lol. We don't get our scores back until May. It was good practice though. ? ࣪˖ ִֶָ studying for bio - bio is interesting. I have a hate/love relationship with that class. it's SO interesting and I like learning about antibiotic resistance, binary fission, and bacter and all that jazz but the teacher is a terrible teacher and the tests are nearly impossible. For example, my teacher took her own test and she didn't even get 100% and she created it! - this test puts me on the ap route which is honestly scary bc if I want to be doctor i have to take ap chem in 3 years and that's the hardest class offered, harder than bc calc. soooo yeah... we'll see. I wish they had AP biology or at least a college option because that's more of my forte - anyway, for our bio tests we're aloud a small paper of notes. Almost always, it literally doesn't help with the tests but it's worth having. It always takes me forever to make bc ngl I jst google everything bc literally none of it is in our notes... ya it sucks. It took me like 40 minutes to complete that thing ughhh ˗ˏˋ writing ´ˎ˗ - i've heard writing a sequel is hard but literally NOTHING could have prepared me for this. It's so hard. For book two I decided to have two different pov's and writing from the perspective of an angsty 17-year-old boy is so hard! I'm only on chapter two and he's already giving me troubles, he won't let this be easy for me. But hey, that's his personality. - I'm in a major writers block. It's one of those awful things where you're like: can I even continue? Which is pretty pathetic considering we're only like 3.5k words in... but it's better than nothing. - i also have p. summer i'm working on which is a whole beast in itself. It's a murder mystery and I'm not using a very structured outline, and omigosh it's gone out the window. Literally I was planning it to be happy for a while but them the book was like NOPE and suddenly my mc was getting r0of!ed. Like what the heck? Lol, writers, you understand. It's a struggle, we don't control our characters, they do whatever the heck they want while we struggle to keep up with them. - p.summer is an idea i had a while ago and i'm in love with it, but it's just not turning out how I wanted it to, and going from writing dystopian to this [the vibe is summer i turned pretty + a good girls guide to murder] thing. I don't even know. This is more of a life update than a vlog... but whatever. i literally have hw to do but whateverrrr. Today I had lunch with my besties after the test and it was such a vibe. So fun. Here is your daily reminder to keep in touch with your friends instead of falling away. okayy sry for the long drag on. welll sorry this was more of a rant. ummm bye luv ya <333