tw for mention of self injury, s--cide, homophobia (?) racism (?) and s3xualistion of children they used to call me a f**got and stuff and they used to say racist things around me and S used to kiss me and sit in my lap and called me a sl-t when i was 11 and S asked me if i h.mped my pillows when i was 9 and when i was 11 she talked about how much she c-t herself and how sad she was and stuff and when i was 11 she tried to get me to date 30+ year old men and do things with them for money when K used to hit me whenever she was angry and it really hurt and i told her to stop but she didn't and if i left her she would kll herself and K kept trying to get me to date 15-16 year olds when i was 11-12 and they both said really s3xual things about other people and just talked about s3xual things a lot and im still gonna apologise for them but i also hate them but i cant really hate them cuz they were going through stuff but idk idk idk i feel like a bad person when i talk about cuz other people have it worse and i feel like im just trying to make myself into a victim but idk idk i just wanted to type it all out 0.o i dont talk to them that much anymore tho !! this feels so attention seeky idk yay
