I'm very sorry it's taken me so long to say this. I've definitely avoided it for a long time mainly because I feel so guilty for having another character die so soon and young. I've got a pretty bad track record at this point but this one really isn't the same. I really, really love Chortle. He's my stupid little trouble man. But the problem is, I hate him too. I hate what he turned out to be. Or, more how he isn't what he was supposed to be. I hate how he reminds me of dozens of things that I wish could have never happened. I had so many plans for him back when I concepted him. But due to some things that I also really hate to remember because of how harmful they were to my self esteem nearly everything I had for him fell apart. Okay, fine, I will do something else with him. Then I made my own blights and they came back to bite me and Chortle lost another very defining part of his character. He was really meant to develop past his childish demeanor but I never got around to it due to the amount of anxiety I would get just thinking about him for a while. Then because of that I lost interest in him. Every interesting part of him or dynamic he had kind of went away. And as you all know, I am a very proud person when it comes to my characters. I like to know what I'm going to do with them from the get-go and then have fun along the way while developing them. But every plan and backup plan I had for him failed. He became discarded. I haven't even talked about him until when I pretended I wanted him to be excused. I don't want him sitting around like a toy I'm bored of. He is actually a symbol of very hard times for me, online and in real life, both due to my mistakes and others'. And there are many people involved in these incidents, none of which I will be mentioning. I do mot blame anyone for anything besides myself, and I really appreciate all the good times everyone gave me. I don't want anyone to feel bad, but I want to make it clear that I mentally cannot return to a state where I give Chortle the attention he deserves. I don't think he deserves to die, so he's gonna fall into the allure of being a pampered pet and his family will move to Italy where he will live a luxurious life. He will definitely have let people know where he went but he wasn't ever one to care how people felt so he probably just said "i'm leaving for a better life, bye lol" and was gone. Thank you to everyone who cared for Chortle and made him who he is! I really appreciate all of the planning and roleplays, even to those of you who I don't talk to anymore. It was such a lovely experience. Goodbye Chortletortoise, enjoy your life free from my meddling and my ruining. I'm so sorry to you, to me, and to everyone. I hope this explains why you were so neglected. I'm sorry you came to this. Much love! I'm going to disappear for a day or two after this but then I'll be back and so will Eevee and Sera! Please always take care of yourself just as I am taking care of myself by doing this!
