Vent// I just feel like im flailing in life and I have no path or direction. There are people who want to be my friend and I would love to be theirs but I'm too scared because of ALL the times I've been hurt. My life keeps falling apart and nothing I do can help it. I feel sick and lost all of the time and I can't get myself out of bed to acctually make a difference. I've been skipping meals because of how overweight I'm becoming. I always just hiding behind jokes and this fake personality that I hate but I truly DON'T know who I am. I had a toxic friend for 2 years that I had to end in January that told me exactly the person she wanted me to be to fit in. I don't know who I actually am. I'm just tired of everything and I don't understand why I am like this but I just can't bring myself to fix it. And this fake personality is someone entily different then who I am. I freakin hate her. But I don't know who I am and I don't know how to fix it. And worst of all I don't have anybody to help me.
