i’ve already made an srp on this and even if i hadn’t it’s kind of late. but i am constantly all the time obsessed with nimbus and how leadership was her ‘downfall’ in a sense ig pink in the night is literally her song btw.. because pink is her leader mark and “i didn’t do it right can i try again, try again, try again” get it. get it. i think her leader mark is funny ironic because it’s meant to represent the (metaphoric) rose-tinted glasses she wore except they shattered basically when she became leader bubs was just like. never meant to grown up :pensive: she had a tiny family she was extremely spoiled and sheltered from all bad in the world and she wasn’t ever responsible, she genuinely never should have been chosen for any leadership position in any situation other than the one shadowclan was thrust into she’s a victim of circumstance and then by extension all of shadowclan is “i glow pink in the night in my room / i’ve been blossoming all over you” first part is extremely literal and obvious. second part is her influence over shadowclan, as a warrior she didn’t really /do/ anything and outright ignored her duties - as a leader she cannot afford to do this anymore. like she quite literally cared more about collecting flowers and whatnot than being an active patrol member or catching prey because there would always be someone more responsible to do it in her place :skull: ‘blossoming all over you’ represents her stupid thing with flowers. there’s a vision here that i can’t explain but i swear it’s there and jt makes sense in my head “i hear my heart breaking tonight / do you hear it too?” the sudden straw that broke the camel’s back kind of thing where her willingly oblivious view of the world physically cannot stand anymore “i could stare at your back all day” the abandonment of mirage/snooze/citrus, rather than take up the role of leadership herself and get shadowclan stable again she dwelled on them, waited hopelessly for them to return, lost herself in why, etc etc all the while leaving shadowclan leaderless “and i know that i’ve kissed you before, but / i didn’t do it right / can i try again, try again, try again” first line isn’t as literal, it’s not romantic - but upon realizing she’s utterly unfit for a leadership role, she began to try and completely ‘rewrite’ her behavior, treating her kids more coldly at times (example a. evenfell) in an attempt to be a more proper parent/leader/etc, essentially trying to amend for what she believed to be poor parenting before and her irresponsibility as a warrior that’s it i love her sm. i cannot rest until every inch of my mind that she occupies is public i will yap about her until the day i die
