that's all i am a disappointment i can't escape this hell im trapped in the constant yelling it's torture i hate it all i just want it to end i can't take it anymore why am i even alive at this point the only time she'd care is when i drop dead she's always mocking me always reminding me how much of a failure i am forgetful stupid a disappointment i don't want to be alive anymore i can't stand the sound of my heartbeat i can't stand being here any longer i can't stand the yelling i can't stand the constant reminders i can't stand it anymore it's only going to continue for years if im still alive by the time im free from this, i don't want to see her anymore i don't like you, mother i know you don't like me either i saw how angry you were i saw the way you moved your hands i know you wanted to strangle me i understand im only a disappointment to you you used to be nice to me what happened what did i do it must've been my fault of course it is it's always my fault the main reason you're angry is because of me a disappointment an ugly, stupid, forgetful, dumb, idiotic, disappointment
