I can't get over her. Nothing I ever do for anyone is good enough. Nobody is ever going to want me. Every day I wake up to the exact same experience as yesterday. I try to tell myself I can change, that I can be happy, but I can't. I just can't. I cant be the same as I was. Nothing is the same as it was when she was there for me. She was everything. This isn't even sadness anymore. Just emptiness. I feel like an emotionless husk. I haven't even felt a sliver of joy for the past few years. Life isn't worth living anymore, and death is so hard to achieve. I want to be free from this eternal prison. I want to feel loved. I want to feel appreciated for who I am. I want to feel cared about. I want to lay down in the grass with her and feel her fingers running across my skin. No god of love would condemn me to such a fate as this. Every night I cry myself to sleep. I can't take this anymore. Nobody ever tells me they love me. Nobody tells me to keep going. Nobody tells me that it's gonna be okay. Nobody tells me that there's gonna be something on the other side. Nobody tells me when it's gonna end. Every day the knives in the kitchen tempt me more and more. I'm reaching my limit. There's no purpose anymore. Not without her. I'm leaving. Goodbye, Earth. and Good Riddance.
DISCLAIMER: This is a joke, I am okay and absolutely love my life C2A
