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this is kind of a vent but not really if you read my profile commenys, (they were deleted by scratch team ,,) ive said basically that sh has become almost an everyday thing, im too young to be feeling this much sadness and im scared to get help because i might get sent to like a psych ward (it sounds like im being dramatic with this but my mom found out i did sh like 4ish months ago and told me she would call one if i didnt stop. that was really comforting of her right?) but honestly i havent been trying to stop at all ive been letting sadness and the urge to hurt myself take over. but im tired of letting that happen. its too much so i visited a kids helpline site thing, ive read some of the stories there for the kids under 13 and yeah i felt a bit better i guess. i might just stick to that rather than actually talking to a counselor. because i still lack trust. im going to actually try to listen to you guys and stop. i dont want to yk myself anymore im here to help people. not to become the one that needs help. so yeah. ill be trying to take a break to get myself together. i just want to get better. i want to move on. i keep saying "its hard!!!!!1111!!" but ig it really just depends on how much you really want to get better im not sure when ill be back, or if i'll even be able to go on a break but im gonna try and im not giving up this time. thank you to these people to letting me talk to them and always being there for me @ioibitz/@goodandevii @ieatstars @fireheartextra @1-800-no @-kerplop- @-nikvshimi- @henryfredbear (theyre the one that told me about the helpline site, so really special thanks to them) @bluwasfound and thanks to my sister for trying to comfort me when im sad. you mean a lot velvet. i know we have beef and arent friends anymore but thank you for being there for me. youve done everything you could to help me for 2 years and i appreciate it so much. youre a good person and i hope youre doing fine without me /gen i took you for granted and i hate myself for it. and thank you to everyone else i didnt mention you guys mean the world to me i love you /p