woah my first vent (sarcasm evident) sooo i was at school with my friends during break, as normal. the school had organised a little painting activity, and they had wanted to do it. i js tagged along since.. those two were my best friends. emphasis on were. so we saw a bunch of little kids there and i said that this activity is probs for K-2 (the reason why my school was holding these events was because a nearby elementary school had come on an excursion here for the day). my friends didnt listen; they js wanted to do the activity. so i said okay, but needed to go to the bathroom. i told them but they js looked in the opposite direction, so i js said im going now and will be back soon. so i went to the bathroom and when i come out realised my friends had either left the area or had deliberately blended in with the crowd. a little upset, i js went to walk around and bumped into my other bestie, lets call her jay. so me and jay walked and talked together and she noticed i looked a little upset. she askes why and i told her everything, ending with these exact words: "this isnt the first time... am i rlly that bad of a friends that they need any excuse to ignore me?? i mean, i did come last year... damn, im such a bad person, worrying about something so little.. i must be too clingy..." jay comforted me and lifted my spirits. this made me think of the best situation; that they were js pranking me. so i headed back to class, only to find that they were ghosting me and had moved to the other side of our table. heck, i swear i heard them talk bad about me to each other too. so during second break jay and another one of my friends comforted me through the bathroom door while i basically cried my eyes out and mentally insulted myself for being such a clingy and bad friend. the next day (today), it was a fancy event amongst a community my family is a part of. i went to the building, my bf had a soccer match and my brother was at school camp, and hung out with one of my friends. i saw no sign of my ex-best friends so i thought that today and tomorrow would hopefully go well. just when i was about to leave, however, my ex-friends had the nerve to stare at me, shout my name and obnoxiously wave. i ignored them. when i was leaving, they freaking went up to my mum and acted all angelic, etc. i instantly left the area, leaving them gaping at their former friend's bejewelled back. but now im js upset. they think that they can keep doing this, over and over and over again. i had a few mental breakdowns over this and at this point im too afraid to go back to school on friday... i dont know how to end this vent... but there you have it :) the cause of my sadness on what should be a joyful occasion. in case ur wondering why my bf wasnt there during the time they ghosted me, its because he was hanging out with his other friends. i dont plan on telling him... its js gonna get worse istg...
