*sigh* Here we go againnn. Yes, another one. Why? Because no one would care except for probably 3-4 people! So basically, that silly bean on the screen here ← represents how I feel among this community. Nothing bad, not really good, too. It’s just that I feel lonely, and as said last vent, I don’t want to play the attention seeker but I feel very forgotten here. Sure, Mandy and some other people talk to me, I just miss when… well, y’know, the feeling when you post something… pride? hah… lost that long time ago. Because no one cares! I will absolutely not force someone to make me happy, because that’s the complete opposite of what I would want to achieve. I just want to say… I feel worthless to anyone besides my friends (/supporters?). Makes me feel small next to ANY of my friends, really. Everyone still… ugh… gets views n all… and I can’t help to feel jealousy. But I think that’s wrong. I s i t w r o n g t o f e e l l i k e t h i s? Maybe it really is, maybe not. But still, all I can is watch this account fall into oblivion. Hm, maybe I should just quit. No, that doesn’t mean I won’t chat. Always open to that! Oh, forgot to mention. My mother is not with me at home anymore. In hospital. Because of uhm… a little problem she had. Now she’ll stay there for about a month. Cool, right? Haha… just kidding. I feel like rotting away. I just want to be loved. I want to run, run until my end falls upon me. My brain, my mind, my heart are tearing themselves apart. Help…
