Y'know, you seem to be breaking down and it's been hard and harsh for you. Isolation is and can be one of the worst feelings. I've been in the same place. Careless friends, and isolation but you have to understand that putting them inside a big bottle and you keep filling it, it will eventually get full and it is impossible for someone to be able to have infinit one. I know that I am only a middl schooler but what I know is true is that scratch is not the problem but mostly isolation. Though scratch can make you expect more from your self to make other people impressed or happy but it can sometimes be a good helper. What I am tryna say is that you should not be living in scratch and also understand the outside world. I can't promise that it won't be boring sometimes but I can promise you that you may and MIGHT be able to find a person like you. it is your choice if you should leave scratch or not, I am not you so I don't know what is better but just know that there is people who do care and they can be hard to find but no one said it is impossible for anyone to care for another people. If a person knows they are important, a lot of people are humble enough to put others on top of each other. You are one of them and it is your choice of where you turn your life. Scratch or no scratch, you are making the road and choose wisely to where it turns.
I was deydrated so my voice sounds weird